Discouraged
Today, about half a dozen times, I had someone tell me that I was an idiot, or that my code was crap, or that packages I maintained were useless, or that I was doing things wrong. This, unfortunately, it typical for Gentoo (and FOSS, in general, I guess) development. It sucks my energy to develop.
Today, I had one person tell me I was awesome and helpful. This was great, and made me feel good, and made me want to develop.
Unfortunately, this is not typical. It’s rare that this happens even once in a week; not often enough to make up for all the negative energy. And that is even more depressing.
So, I’m getting discouraged. The question then becomes, if I stop working on Gentoo, what do I do with my time? Do I work on upstream Gnome? Do I start a coding project of my own? Maybe jump ship entirely to some other alternative OS? Do I even continue to run Gentoo, once I can’t contribute to it? Or switch to something else? If so, what?
Don’t mind me, I’m in a pissy mood.
UPDATE: Thanks for all the kind words. But honestly, I wasn’t asking for pats on the back, just venting. I know you won’t believe me, but…