School Dreams
Okay, on a fairly regular basis I have dreams where I am back in school (usually high school) and for whatever reason (usually not my fault) I don’t know any of the material that I need to know for the test. It happened again last night. This time it was an English class (actually, it’s usually an English class… hmmm) and we had to take this exam that started with a bunch of vocabulary words that we had to define, and then had an essay part based on reading excerpts from the book. I arrived at the classroom (on Monday, it was supposed to be) to find that I had not only forgotten to study the vocab, but I hadn’t even read the book. I didn’t even know what it was about. Since the only word that I even recognized from the vocab was “mausoleum”, I skipped that part and went to the essay section. But since I hadn’t read the book, I had to read all the excerpts in order to do the essays, with the result that I was completely running out of time to do anything. So most of the dream was actually taken up by reading parts of whatever book it was supposed to be. (And people say you can’t read in dreams!) Anyway, the real reason that I bothered to relate this rather uninteresting dream is because this type of dream happens to me all the time. It has to mean something. Am I afraid of not knowing anything and looking like an idiot or something? The thing is, these dreams are usually not upsetting. I never start to cry or anything, and I never actually care that I don’t know the material, because it’s always something pointless. Occasionally I get angry because the teacher will get annoyed with me for not knowing something that I have no possible way of knowing. But that’s really about it. So, I don’t really understand why I’m always having these kinds of dreams and what it says about me. I’m sure a shrink would have lots of fun analyzing it, though.